sometimes too much

We fight and we kiss, we have a lot of drama lately.

Now we are back to harmony. Everything is fine, he is satisfied. I try to be as I should.

But I feel trapped. I can’t decide for me own any more, because he would get in a bad mood. So I keep quiet, until one day I will burst again?

It is so important for me that he likes me, treats me well, is nice to me. He told me to take more care of myself. But if I do we sure will fight. I can’t be myself when it endangers our relationship. I can’t be happy if I repress my true self for too long.

I try so hard to be as I think I should, but I don’t even know if he prefers me that way.

Am I too scared that he may not like the real me?

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