We are in a kind of deadlock situation.
I gave up and he stopped searching for comfort. I can’t remember the last time we kissed. It must be a week ago. I miss him so much and I can’t stand this situation any longer.
Today is his first day at his new company. I got up before him and thought about making breakfast. But I didn’t. He never got up when I have to work and it didn’t feel right in this whole situation. Now I know it may had changed something. But why should it always be me making the first move. I’m stubborn too.
Also, there was nothing for breakfast at home. I would have had to buy something first, because he – who stayed home yesterday – didn’t think one day in the future. Maybe this day is special to him too and it is my kind of revenge because he sort of destroyed our anniversary. It is hard to say.
I also feel bad about the food shopping issue again. He let me pay for his food and eat it ALL by himself. But it may be the other way: I am annoyed and this is why the food issue became present again.
May I take some days off and visit my family. I miss him anyway and some distance can help us both. I don’t know.